Epic Fail

This lust fast has honestly been an epic fail.. I feel like I did this on my own and sort of just tried to lead myself into the Word and it didn't really do much.. Maybe some help from a friend would be beneficial? ..... Happy Easter, by the way!

Rough Day

Today's been rough, you guys.. I'm gonna be honest- I didn't focus on any verse today.. I'm just really.... Ambivalent.. I'm not sure how to feel about a lotta stuff.. Prayers...

Zechariah 7: 9-10

"Thus has the Lord of hosts said, 'Dispense true justice and practice kindness and compassion each to his brother; and do not oppress the widow or the orphan, the stranger or the poor; and do not devise evil in your hearts against one another.'"
My focus for the day: "do not devise evil in your hearts against one another"... "practice kindness and compassion each to his brother"... I usually don't have a problem with practicing kindness, it's just that I'm choosy with whom I practice this.. And I'm not gonna lie- I struggle with not devising evil in my heart against people. So, I'm praying this prayer today:
Lord Heavenly Father, I come to you thanking you for the opportunity to seek you today and for your Word, which empowers me to live my life for you. I pray right now that you keep my mind focused on this verse today, and that you show me how to practice kindness and compassion. I pray that you help me to no devise evil in my hearts against anyone and to be fair, in this way, to everyone. In Jesus' name I pray.
Amen.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not into your own understanding....
This was my focus for the day. I'm not so good at keeping specific scriptures in mind throughout the entire day.. But this is only day 2 of 40..
Stay tuned and stay prayed up!

For the Love of Christ

For the love of Christ I am beginning a forty-day fast. What kind of fast, you ask? A lust fast and I expect it to be one with some difficulty. I prayed last Tuesday at Bible study for all of the flaws that I have that have been troubling my peers and I lately and one major one that has been persistent since I was a child was my struggle with lust. I know that everyone has that one temptation that trips them up throughout their entire life, but I feel that lust is something that everyone encounters at some point. For me, lust has been the trickiest of all my temptations, so I'm taking a break!
During this break I plan to set aside some time to spend intimately talk with God. As I journey through this fast, I'm gonna try to keep my blog updated with whatever God decides to tell me.. :)
So be on the lookout, guys!

Water Under the Bridge

My beau and I talked the other day and our separation is finally over!

I do have different feelings towards him now though and I'm not sure if that's for better or worse.. I just know that I didn't like the idea of us having space and that I'm gonna be sure to give him plenty of that in the future. I just don't want him to be annoyed with me. So, yeah.

It's all water under the bridge with us now..

We're lovin all over each other again! :)

S P A C E

He's asking for space and I feel like he's asking for a breakup.

Even though I know that's not the case, my entire life has seemed to hiccup.

It makes me think about my previous relationships.. The longest one lasted three months and there was plenty of space between that guy and I. We were young and immobile, so space was a given.. But now that I'm older and can basically go anywhere I want whenever I want, I want to do just that. But my guy likes to stay in and have alone time, whereas I'm more of a get-out-and-go-hang-with-friends kind of girl.. So my heart's beating really fast when I think about how much time I'd love to spend with him while we're on Spring Break but all he wants to do is stay in and watch TV...

It shouldn't hurt my feelings, but it does because I feel like I want to be with him more than he wants to be with me. And I'm sure that's not true, but my mind always goes there.. I just need to give him his space and pray that my feelings of rejection can be erased.. And wonder why, oh why do I have to feel so much pain???