Just Let Me Be

Just let me be

Just let me loose so I can be free

And don't try to pull me back and stop me

Just let me be, loose, and free

So that maybe one day, I can finally be

Me.

My 100th Post

I search and I roam all about the internet for one specific pleasure that will satisfy my greed.
Type in myspace.com to find appeal in another's life. And I become KeKe, the southern hood rat that does not attend school.
Still hungry.
On tagged.com I search for glamour and fame, but still want to be kinky. And I become Baby V, a pop singer and actress who has a wild side but a sweet face.
On bebo.com I search for a slut who can do what she wants and not care about judgement. And I become Gwen, a girl with a salacious background that decides to settle and get married. I become Alissa, who is just young and fun and knows where to find a good party. I become Analiz, a hispanic girl who was once sweet and wholesome, until she found that being such got her nowhere. I become Selena, a saucy bisexual latina with a guy as a best friend, with whom she will never part. I become Miranda, a model who poses for dirty magazines but could be beautiful without doing so.
I've searched and roamed the internet almost all my life and found these girls inside of me; my alter egos, waiting to be unleashed. And the only place that I could truly set them free in a secretive manner was the internet.
On the internet I was KeKe, Vanessa, Gwen, Alissa, Analiz, Alissa, Selena, Miranda, Camrey and the many other girls that I'd dare not be in real life.
My internet adventures have been fun, but I think that in celebration of my 100th post on blogger.com, I'm gonna throw in the towel and just be Andrea from now on..
Love you, bloggies! ;)

It's 'IN'

Soooo.. I guess the Jesus sandals are in now..

Boy do I feel sorry for the conformists! Them thangs is ugly!!!

;) Lol

Away

I am away. Noun. But not a place, a thing.

Away is me. When I drift, I become away and I float above the air.

But not above the clouds, just above the people so fair

And I breathe a different kind of breath, a kind that no one can see

No matter how cold, my breath is invisible as long as I am free.

And I see, but no one else does see me, because I float high above their eyes

And they think that I fly, but really I just die to world that's surrounding me

And away is how I describe this journey that I take every now and then

When I slip on my headphones and die to the world and that's when the breathing begins

The breathing of breaths that you can no longer see

And the living of life that is beautiful and free

As I become away and leave my worries from today.

I am away.

My Nails

Read between the lines and see who I can be
A different person everyday, each in a very different way
But what do you see when you look at me?
Bright and funky? Loud and spunky? But that's all that I set free
Pink and purple, blue and green
Today I'm happy, tomorrow I'm mean
Or am I jealous and full of envy?
Are these the only colors that you give me?
I wear these colors, they are my mood rings
But you won't find them around my finger or circling my toes
Atop of my nails is where you can find a rose
That speaks so beautifully and announces my moods
And lets you know when I'm feeling the blues.
These colors are not just what set me free
But they also allow me to be
The designs and shapes and figures of grapes and stops signs and flashlights and sometimes even words.
They all come together and set me apart
My nails aren't just me. My nails are art.

Trust a Try

Trust me this time, but just this once.
Take my hand and let me show you that there's no need to be afraid.
Similar pasts is what we come from, but we'll make it last longer than those ones.
Those ones we had that had to leave were clearly no good, but maybe they did not deserve we
Or we didn't deserve they.. But whichever way, you deserve me and me deserves you
So pack away your fears in the trunk of forgetfulness and set it afire because you no longer need
Because you found me and me found you and you is all I need and I is all you need.
Trust me with your heart and your mind and your soul and I'll trust you with my soul and my mind and my heart.
So never shall we part, not even after death or during or before.
Forevermore, we are destined to be together. Let's just be, you and me.
Me and you, but first, dear, you must learn to trust that we can be.
We.
Trust me.

Bleeding

I love. And that is all I do

Passionately I press all of my love into everything that I do.

Forcing my giant love into small spaces where I know it will not fit.

But even so, I love.

And as the love I have pushed and forced into those holes seep out onto the floor as if it were nothing but water, I bleed.

That's my love that you rejected, my love that you neglected and failed to realize even existed

And now my eyes have misted because I forced my love into places that it did not belong or should never have dwelled.

Because I failed to preserve the love onto which I should've held

Tight

But I figured that I just might get a little love back this time.

But instead, I bled.

The Me That I Love :)

This me is fantastic

This me is secure

This me has just about everything she needs for success

And most importantly,

this me

ain't  stuntin these hoes!! 

Totally kiddin, guys!!

... And the Crowd Goes Wild

Yup, it sure does... for the right person!

And I HATE when the crowd goes wild for some, but not others.

It really "p"s me off. :-\

And tomorrow, I might just be a victim of such cruelty, not that I'm doubting my popularity.

I just know that when I go up on the stage to accept my awards, there won't be nearly as many cheers as when the cool kids do...

*sighs*

:) :) :) (: (: (:

I'm not gonna overreact this time, or make any assumptions too soon.

BUT...

The guy that I'm kinda into gave me his number yesterday. :)

And we're texting each other... Now.

But I'm not gonna rush anything. Cuz he could just like me as a friend.

And his best friend is my ex.

So, I'll just leave it at that. :)

Woot woot!

Apology Taken Back

Jerk.

That is all.

Done with You

Completely and utterly finished.

I mean I am through.

Why? Because you ruined a lotta ish.

You ruined me and my reputation and a good friendship.

You're selfish.

And I can honestly say that right now, I hate you.

Hate.

Sincere hate is what I feel towards you.

So congratulations, "bro."

Mistakes

It really sucks when you confide in someone and trust them with huge stuff

And when you grow close to them and, as you gain theirs, they begin to gain your trust

When all of a sudden, you come to realize that they weren't so trustworthy after all

And usually, it's them, that you would run to for catching if you would ever fall.

Soooooo.. Who do I turn to now that you're gone?

Revival in KC, Yall!

Soooo... I've never been to a revival before, but it sounds like BUCKETS OF PRAISE AND WORSHIP....

Right?

Soooooo maybe I'll just catch the next one because from how Cage is describing it, this one doesn't sound too much like what I envisioned..

This is more like what I had in mind... :)

 

And this..