Crap

I feel as though this is becoming a bit ridiculous. Why am I not over you yet?
Why do I still long to speak to you everyday?
Why do you cross my mind constantly throughout the day?
Why can't I stop comparing other guys to you?
Why haven't I gotten over you?
.......Maybe I need to be busier so that I can stop thinking so much about you and how much I miss you.
And the only song that's stuck in my head right now is "Wreck of the Day" by Anna Nalick....
For those who don't know, she's talking about a breakup.
Maybe. Maybe I just need another boy to focus on. In the past, after every breakup I'd just find someone new to focus on. I told myself that that someone new would be Christ this time.
But ya know, I'm human. And it's so hard to believe that God can take care of even my physical desires sometimes. I know he can, but I just have a hard time believing it.
I just feel so broken and alone and sad and shameful.
And remorseful and dreary and just about every other emotion that can be felt.
:-\
I would love it if you all prayed for me.