Get Over It

So, how am I supposed to get over you when I've never really had to get over anyone before?? I mean, not anyone that I truly cared for... And am I supposed to move on when I still have "feelings" that are still there? I mean, I don't even know if I do still have feelings for you.. I just know that I never got closure... And my feelings are hurt because... Just because... I guess I just expected you to come running back to me... Because I'm a Johnson.. Guys always realize that they did us wrong and come running back.. So, what's my mistake??? And now it's like only the wrong kind of guys are trying to talk to me.. Guys that I don't want... So, what now? How am I supposed to get over you?????????? Why can't I just get over you?

You Love Me! You Really Love Me!

Today I received a lovely card in the mail.. It read:

I love you..... BIG TIME!

:) And guess who it was from!

Drumroll, please.......

My nanna :)

Alright, I know it sounds cheesey, but it really meant a lot to me.

I guess I should add that it's my grandma on my dad's side of the family. In the past, I haven't really been close to them.. I'm glad that I am getting a chance to grow closer, though.

So in a few days, my nanna will be receiving a card saying:

I love you.... WAAAAAAAY MORE!

And I guess it shall continue from there! ;)

Potty Mouth! xP

I LOOOOOVE you, Bobby Ray Simmons AKA B.o.B but...

You sure got a potty mouth on you!

Wakin Up to Love!:).... Or Just Wakin Up

Good morning, Bloggies! If you're wondering why I am up so early, so am I! So maybe we can figure this out together! .... :) I went to bed at about 3 A.M. and I don't believe I should be awake right now..

You're probably thinking that I was rudely awakened by some blaring alarm clock or loud parents. Although my parents were up and moving about, I doubt that the noise they were making was loud enough to be bothersome to my sleep. So, I'm not exactly sure why I am awake..

But I can't go back to sleep now.

Soooo... I will be sipping coffee and getting ready for my semi-long day! :)

Who's Right?

Ever have a conflict with a friend and you think he/she's totally wrong??

And no matter how you look at it, you can't possibly see eye to eye..

Then you wonder.... Am I in the wrong here??

But still... It just seems better your way..

Sucks when that happens between best friends. :-\

I Thank You

Even though we are no longer best friends, our friendship has taught me a lot about myself and life in general. We were once great friends and I will always cherish that, but there's a reason we are no longer. However, one benefit that I received from being friends with you is knowledge. I had never met anyone like you before. You were so outspoken and honest. I loved it. Still do. I love you.
Thank you for helping me.
:)

So Not Over You

What I thought I had; what I thought I knew

I guess it was all over after we were through.

Once I had a dream that allowed me to see

How upset I am when there's only me

But this can't be real, although it feels true

I was just fine before I was with you

So why am I so hurt and discombobulated

When while we were together, it was you whom I hated

I can't understand. Maybe to me it was unknown

Everything that I had until it was gone.

Even so....

Now that you are gone, it only feels true

That I never have been and never will be truly over you.

Dream

It was the last day of school and, for some reason, all of the students were in some kind of auditorium. We were all just sitting around waiting to be told what we should do next. I, being the busy body that I am, was moving around, talking to people, making new friends and laughing with old ones when I came across familiar face. Ahmad.
He was sitting there and I don't remember if he was talking or anything. Maybe just sitting, I guess. So I sat next to him being friendly because I hadn't seen him since our last date and hadn't dreamed of seeing him at school again. Turns out he had been there our whole freshman year but he was just waaaay under the radar.
As we were sitting there talking, a somewhat dark-complected girl came and the two shared a few words. She hugged him and she left. Shortly after she disappeared, Ahmad had to leave too, so we said our goodbyes.
After he was gone, a friend of mine (who is also a friend of his) came and sat next to me. I quietly whispered to him, "That was his girlfriend, wasn't it?" and the friend nodded. Upon finding all this out, you can only imagine the dismay in my mind, but only a few moments later I had to wake up and cope with the tragedy inside my heart.

Changes (Part 2)

Hay, Bloggies! :) I know it's been a short while, but I thought I'd update you guys by continuing from a super old post entitled "Changes" (hints this one is called "Changes (Part 2)"). ;)

So, whether you accept it or not, everything in life is going to change. Depending on who you are, change can be good or bad. Like I said, it depends on who you are.

I don't know about me.. I guess I like consistency and all but change ain't always bad. :) For instance, I used to be a BIG TIME flirt. No lie. And I would always use the excuse that I just have a friendly personality and that people mistook my friendliness for flirtatiousness. Naaa I was a flirt.

But I guess that trait has somehow vanished :) ... for the better. Cause, ya know flirting isn't like totally horrible but overall, I don't believe flirtatiousness is a very good trait to have. :)

However, today at Super Splash I was being kinda flirty with this one guy.. And I didn't really like myself for being that way. I mean sure it feels good and all to boost your ego with a little flirting but that's not a good reason to flirt with anybody. Maybe flirting is ok only when you're truly interested in someone. 

Who knows?

I don't.

BUT I am certainly happy that overall, I am not a flirtatious person. :)

Drop a comment and let me know some things that have changed for you guys.. Good and/or bad :) I'm interested!

Follow Me

Follow me.

On Twitter, of course. But actually, follow my homegirl, too!

She just made a Twitter and it is too cute!

Oh and my friend, Isaac just made his new profile.

So follow him, too! Man, Twitter's the new style!

You know that girl, Angie? She just got a Twitter, too!

And so did Jessey, Billy, John, Chrissy, and so did my boo!

Let's follow all them! Seems like they know what to do!

And for the rest of my life, I guess I'll just follow whatever's cool.

Like wearin Converse, Polo, and Vans. You know that is what's in

That's all we gotta do if we wanna fit in.

Get in and fit in all the way through highschool.

Because, like I said, it's all about being cool.

Houston, We Have a Major Problem

Sooo... At what point do we stop being best friends?? Is it when I tell you that I like a guy then two days later you like him, too? Or is it when you ask me to back off because you like him now, when you knew that I liked him to begin with? Or is it when you ask to come to my youth group again because "the three of us have fun together"?  I'm not sure at which point we should stop being best friends. But I do know that I don't know how long this best friendship will last when you're constantly being scandalous about this situation.

Ttfn, bloggies. Let me know whatcha think! :-\

Time's A-Ticking

Hay, bloggies! It's been far too long since I've updated you guys!

But trust me.... A new blog post is coming with lots of juicy details :)

See you guys soon!

Mmmmmuah!

Restoration

I don't know if I've ever felt so disconnected from God before in my life..

I'm not sure what I need, but I need somethin..

God, please help..

Gimme a Break!

Well.. I'll take that, too!

Just a Day in the Life

Ain't a happy one when it's my time of the month.

This Chick Right Here...

... Is ghetto and it's funny as heck! Lol!

Just Let Me Be

Just let me be

Just let me loose so I can be free

And don't try to pull me back and stop me

Just let me be, loose, and free

So that maybe one day, I can finally be

Me.

My 100th Post

I search and I roam all about the internet for one specific pleasure that will satisfy my greed.
Type in myspace.com to find appeal in another's life. And I become KeKe, the southern hood rat that does not attend school.
Still hungry.
On tagged.com I search for glamour and fame, but still want to be kinky. And I become Baby V, a pop singer and actress who has a wild side but a sweet face.
On bebo.com I search for a slut who can do what she wants and not care about judgement. And I become Gwen, a girl with a salacious background that decides to settle and get married. I become Alissa, who is just young and fun and knows where to find a good party. I become Analiz, a hispanic girl who was once sweet and wholesome, until she found that being such got her nowhere. I become Selena, a saucy bisexual latina with a guy as a best friend, with whom she will never part. I become Miranda, a model who poses for dirty magazines but could be beautiful without doing so.
I've searched and roamed the internet almost all my life and found these girls inside of me; my alter egos, waiting to be unleashed. And the only place that I could truly set them free in a secretive manner was the internet.
On the internet I was KeKe, Vanessa, Gwen, Alissa, Analiz, Alissa, Selena, Miranda, Camrey and the many other girls that I'd dare not be in real life.
My internet adventures have been fun, but I think that in celebration of my 100th post on blogger.com, I'm gonna throw in the towel and just be Andrea from now on..
Love you, bloggies! ;)

It's 'IN'

Soooo.. I guess the Jesus sandals are in now..

Boy do I feel sorry for the conformists! Them thangs is ugly!!!

;) Lol

Away

I am away. Noun. But not a place, a thing.

Away is me. When I drift, I become away and I float above the air.

But not above the clouds, just above the people so fair

And I breathe a different kind of breath, a kind that no one can see

No matter how cold, my breath is invisible as long as I am free.

And I see, but no one else does see me, because I float high above their eyes

And they think that I fly, but really I just die to world that's surrounding me

And away is how I describe this journey that I take every now and then

When I slip on my headphones and die to the world and that's when the breathing begins

The breathing of breaths that you can no longer see

And the living of life that is beautiful and free

As I become away and leave my worries from today.

I am away.