Saturday, March 27, 2010

Don't Regret (Demi Lovato Redo)

Did u regret that you told me your secrets
Did u regret all the inside jokes we get
Did u regret? Did u regret all that stuff?
Did u forget that I never have judged you
Did u forget that I always will love u
Now I'm left to regret that I told u
So somewhere I went wrong
I thought we would go on
Keeping secrets
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did u regret ever telling me then?
Never again don't make me regret.. Don't regret
We told it all
We were just about to grow even closer than we were before
I won't forget. I won't forget about this.
So somewhere I went wrong
I thought we would go on
Our bond just was so strong
Guess u forget it

So somewhere I went wrong..
I thought we would go on
Our bond was just so strong
Guess you've forgotten


(End note.. Please believe that I didn't plan all this out.. It just happened.. When u get mad at me and get impatient and judge me it doesn't help AT ALL.. It hurts because I thought I could talk to u about everything.. )



Thursday, March 18, 2010

Dirty Guilt

Please don't award and applaud me for doing chores and work around the house without being asked.. I'm only keeping myself busy before I busy myself with business that I don't belong in. I am guilty. I feel guilty. I feel dirty and I don't want to be applauded for doing anything right when I know that I have still done some wrong... I am still working on things... Still getting things together.. Like no one's perfect but people can still strive towards perfection and every time I slip it feels like I've just given up.. Well I don't know what to do anymore.. I say I'm done.. But I'm not.. I know I'm not because thoughts and images keep appearing in my head.. It's like I can't stop them.. I guess I just need help.. But during this process, I don't feel like I deserve any applause. I don't deserve any rewards.. Just simply give me a nod and a pat on the back and tell me to keep moving.. I feel too dirty and guilty to deserve more than that.