What Up Doe?!

This is a pretty random post about some pretty random stuff.
I don't have anything in particular that I'd like to blog about, so I'm just gonna type what's on my mind real quick and get yall updated on my life.
I have a new friend! Jeanna's the name (pronounced like Jee-nuh) and she LOVES Christ! The thing that I love about people who really love Christ is that they are human and are transparent about their struggles. Jeanna is just that and I love her and I love that! She goes to my church and she's just awesome.
Also.. My old friend from Second Missionary, Demoy, has been coming to my church lately. He loves it! I'm just so glad that I've been able to share Christ with the people in my life that I love! It's really awesome.
Vernice has also been coming to church with me more frequently. She's dealing with a breakup and I think we ALL know how tough that can be!..... We do and so I'm really just trying to be a shoulder for all of my friends right now. I love to love and I especially love to love the hurt and broken.
I know that that's my spiritual gift! I love being a person that people can depend on and so I'm being just that!
I'm hanging out with my ex tomorrow morning. :-| Annnnnd to be completely honest with everyone, I don't think I've fully healed from our relationship. I think I'm still somewhat broken and I still have some anger towards him.... Soooooo is it healthy to hang out with him tomorrow? I don't know. I know for sure that I'm not in love with him anymore and it's interesting learning the ways that I deal with breakups..... I honestly feel sick to my stomach when I think about him sometimes.
Maybe it's a bad idea to hang out with him tomorrow....
I don't know. I'm just kind of bleh about everything.
Pray for me everyone. Thanks

Ladies..... KNOW YOUR WORTH

I'll admit-- I myself have fallen into the trap of lust and given my body to a man that was not my husband. And yes, premarital sex is premarital sex whether you're in a committed relationship with someone or not, BUT why on earth would you have sex with a guy that you barely know and are not even dating?
Why on earth would you have sex with a guy that you've only been dating for a few months and do not know intimately?
We all make mistakes, so learn from your first. Don't give up your body and definitely don't give up your heart to someone who is undeserving, ladies. It'll take you through hell, damage you for life, and leave you feeling worse about yourself than you started off.
*Sighs*... I just wish the beautiful young ladies in my life knew that they and their bodies are worth more than premarital sex. They are worth more than these guys that don't wish to invest much time or love into a relationship with them. Ladies, your bodies are God's temples. They were made for more than empty encounters with guys that could care less about you. Please, please, PLEASE..... Know. Your. Worth.
You're beautiful and made in God's image. He has so much more for you than that......

Blehhhhh

I just saw an old friend at the gym... Well, old friend wouldn't really be how I'd put it. This friend was very much like a brother to me, but is not anymore. It's not like I didn't try to maintain that friendship. I did. Last summer before he went off to college, I made a few attempts to spend time with him. They all fell through. And when he got back from college this summer we spent a day together and he promised that this summer would be different in terms of the amount of time we'd spend together.... Unfortunately, every time I've reached out to him I've gotten blown off. So, seeing this old friend of mine caused me to feel a lot of pain...  A lot of pain that I didn't really know was there.
You see, he isn't the only "good friend" that I've lost due to their lack of effort... There's a girl friend of mine with whom I was really close when we were in high school together. But she seemed to have blown me off quite a bit too.... I don't understand why and that's what bugs me so much! I've looked through old messages and reminisced on old times and my friendships with both of those people were great! We shared a lot of emotions and love and it seemed like we'd be friends forever! So, it just really hurts me to know that all that is over.. Not by MY choosing. I tried. Multiple times. And the door was basically shut in my face. So now I'm left with bitterness and anger towards those old friends and I know that shouldn't be....
God... I'm not sure how to handle this situation with the friends that I've lost... I feel as though I've done my part by reaching out to them and have been rejected, which is not a good feeling... I know that you've forgiven me for a multitude of wrongs that I've committed towards you, so I should be able to do the same for them, right? It's just really hard because those people haven't even apologized. *sighs*... Help me to extend love and grace in these situations. And lead me to the direction in which you would have me go. Show me what actions need to be taken, if any at all.. And please please PLEASE give me peace about this. Remove the bitterness, anger, hostility, remorse, sadness, resentment, any and all negative feelings that I have towards your children. Because they are still yours just like me. And if you could love me through all my wrongs, I should be able to love your people through this.
Amen.