Hard Times, Y'all

It's so difficult for me to live with my stepdad being the only parent in the house! It's not that he's difficult to live with or anything (as he pointed out to me yesterday). It's just that he's so difficult to figure out. With my mom I have an understanding of exactly what's expected out of me. She is also very easy to understand, as I've had a fairly strong relationship with her for the past sixteen years. But my stepdad is a little questionable...

Sometimes he lies and the one thing that I lose all respect for is a liar! So, it's already pretty tough for me to respect him. However, I treat him with respect at all times because he's my parent and also much older than me. He also tends to alter his behavior around certain people, which utterly confuses me about who the heck he really is! I feel like I'm living with a stranger almost and it's very frustrating!

Lastly, I feel like my stepdad is attempting to be my friend, rather than my authority figure sometimes. And then when he decides to be the authority figure, I'm not really sure how to handle that...

I'm not saying that I'm a perfect child. Clearly, I've been making some pretty big mistakes for me to end up on punishment. But things have been changing so much for me lately... My mom is living seven hundred seventy-nine miles away from me for the first time in my entire life! I just got my license a couple months ago and my very first job. And not only that, but I've started my junior school year as a full IB student... With my stepdad, there's plenty of freedom as long as I let him know first.. But it's really hard for me to respect someone who seems to be so shallow as an authority figure....

*Shrugs*

Prayers, guys... It'd be really nice right now.

Define Class

noun. 

A person or thing displaying impressive and stylish excellence.

I think that looks something like this.

And, honey.. YOU ain't got it.

Somthin Special ♥♥♥

You and I, boo. Yeah me and you

We got somethin special, we sure do

It's something kinda neat and something so sweet

No other "somethin special" could even compete

This feels pretty real and I'm sure that you feel

the same about me, and I'm so glad that we've healed...

Our pasts don't matter, cuz this is right now

And we've got somethin so special, so we'll hold on anyhow

Moment By Moment, One Day At A Time

Hay, bloggies! I've recently encountered a friend of mine that's been struggling with an addiction. As I've struggled and still do struggle with the same addiction, I felt the need to share with the world a few words of encouragement...

Dealing with addiction can be the toughest thing ever, especially if you're Christian! I used to wonder sometimes if I was even saved and if God would still forgive me when I'd been committing the same sins over and over again. The hopeless feelings and sorrowful thoughts caused me to wonder if God even believed me anymore when I apologized and confessed my sins to him. I was THAT hopeless. And the truth is that I still am.

Addictions, I believe, stick with you for your entire life. I may be wrong in this theory, but it seems to me that an alcoholic will have that one temptation for another drink all his life. And the devil will tempt a porn addict every chance he gets. But I learned in my father's Celebrate Recovery group that we should take life moment by moment, one day at a time. That phrase is so simple, but it's extremely powerful!

Whenever I think about how I'll always be tempted with this sin for the rest of my life, I just get so depressed. But when I remember that I can do all things through Christ and realize that when that moment of temptation comes, I can withstand the pain, I feel totally relieved.

I may fall again. No denying it. Somewhere down the road I'm gonna home all by myself and the temptation will seem unbearable! And I may fall that day. Or I'll remember that the joy of the Lord is my strength and I'll call up a buddy and have them pray with me. Either way, I'm gonna take it moment by moment, one day at a time. I'm not gonna let my addiction get the best of me. And you shouldn't either.

Remember that no matter how many times you fall, no matter how often you fall, God is always waiting for you to come back home to him. And he loves you just the same! 

And if any of you guys have an addiction that you'd like prayer for, I'm totally here! :) Cuz I know it ain't easy, but it's always nice to talk to someone who can relate. :)

Honor Thy Mother and Father

Exodus 20:12 says:

"Honor your father and mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you."

And I couldn't agree more! Ever since the day I was born, I've been raised to respect and honor my elders, especially my parents. And I'm sure this verse would apply to grandparents, too.

But goodness gracious, it's hard honoring my grandma all the time. I know that probably sounds bad, but my grandmother isn't exactly a sweet old lady.. Quite the opposite, actually. And even though she has her good moments, it's still really hard for me to accept the bad ones. It's like I never know when the beast will be unleashed!

And not only that.. My grandma can be very annoying sometimes; she talks so much and repeats herself over and over again, so I feel like she's talking to me like I'm a child. And that can be really frustrating!

*Sighs* Just pray that I'll be able to survive these next couple of days with my feisty grandmammy!