That Ex

Soooo you are never gonna guess who I saw at Walmart yesterday! Well, maybe you will guess because of the title of this post.. Well anyway, I saw him!! I saw the ex that I spent months getting over! I saw that ex that I just knew I'd be with forever! And despite all the weirdness that went along with it, I think I'm gonna be OK. :)

Oh What Joy

Oh what joy it would bring me if only we could be..
We could be free to flee from every entity in thee universe
So here's a verse from me to you just to disperse my woe for us two
Yes us-you and I... A girl can only try so hard to hide and fight back. But pride
always gets me. It gets me right when I feel I'm free. I sense a hint of something else that should inhibit me..
But we...
Man we could be something great! What we have here is fate or maybe destiny...
Whatever it be, it's hindering me.. I think it's a force that hates divorce and sorrow and pain and covers me from the rain.. The storm through which I could go if I followed my own soul
This force tells me, see, that you're not the one for me.. But I'm not sure if this force is saying "not now" or "not ever".. Whatever the weather, my eyes see my wants and my heart cries forever!
... Anyhow and any way that it's possible to say.. Love could be our fate if we just ran away..
Disobedience would be the case if we agreed to that race... But I say we remain pure in the eyes of the one who can cure any disease, because I'm uneasy when I see that I am not yours...
And though I want so badly to be..
I must be obedient to THEE.

Define Fun.

So I was just making some brownies with my sister a second ago and after putting the mix into the oven, I indulged in the sweet chocolatiness of the batter that was left in the bowl.. As I was doing this, I remembered being younger and finding this part of the brownie-making process to be the absolute best and I found it to be completely fun using my fingers and tongue to clean every inch of the bowl. This time I used a small spoon to clean the bowl and it made me wonder why I even found it to be fun using my hands and mouth before...
It's funny how our minds can take us from one thought to another and the two thoughts may not even be closely related. Anyhow, I realized that a lot of the "fun" things I used to do when I was younger I probably not consider to be fun anymore. When I was younger, I would think that the fun things I saw people doing on TV were truly fun. I would see kids laughing and having a good time with their friends in fun pillow fights. But when I had an actual pillow fight, it was not fun at all. I would see sisters making brownies in the kitchen and getting messy, but having a good time.. Making brownies has never been that way for me.. So maybe it's just the way "fun" is portrayed in the media that makes life less enjoyable.. Maybe that's why making brownies has never been fun to me, but instead it was just baking..
... Or maybe my fun is just a different kind of fun.

Zzz...

Lately I've been going to bed pretty late and consequently, waking up late as well. But last night I went to bed on time...ish. I was in bed at about midnight which is early for me.. So as soon as I get home today I am nappin my butt off! :)

... Kinda like that :)