Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I Feel Like...

I feel like there's no other way to express my true feelings.
I feel like thinking about you all the time but, that always brings about tears.
I feel like the constant thinking and questioning and wondering simply cannot bring about healing!
I feel like telling you how much you hurt me but, it's one of my biggest fears.
I feel like screaming everyday since the day we broke up.
I feel like confessing my sins to the world but, that's so hard to do.
I feel like all hope is gone and I should just give up.
I feel like thinking about how it was when I was with you..
But no. You hurt me; I never told you, but you did.
And wait. You're such a jerk but only because you're still a kid.
So..... On days when I feel like crying and I feel that inside I'm dying
What do I do?

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Said I Wasn't Goin Back... Well....

I did it.. I went back.. I went back to the very thing that set out to kill me..
And I am so ashamed.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Every Time I Tried to Leave...

... Something kept pulling me back... It was so hard..
And now that I've been delivered from the situation, the devil's tryna pull me right back into it..
It's even harder this time than it was before.. The thoughts "Well I haven't done it in a while; it couldn't hurt just to go back once..." keep popping up in my brain...
It's difficult.. So prayers, please...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

C.R.U.S.H. :)

Sooo...  It's UNANIMOUS.... I've got a crush... A secret admiration..


First one since Ahmad... :P
His name makes me sick, now.. It has since the day we broke up though...
Haha..
And I thought I'd never move on.. Lol.

And I have a crush :) Muah ha ha ha!