Thursday, October 27, 2011

ForgetfulL

I guess I just forget how silly I can be
that when I would start to think, I'd get excited about you and me.
I guess I just forgot that when I get that spot
in the middle of my tummy to let it go before it rots
I guess I was forgetting how crazy that thought was
that one day you and I could ever have something like love
Silly me.. Because of how forgetfulL I can be
When I forget sometimes that you're only sixteen.
How forgetfulL of me; "Oh how embarrassed she must be
to set her feelings free and not have anything to receive."
That's what they must say bout forgetfulL little me
When they see just how crazy I was about we.

Monday, October 17, 2011

With These Hands I Shall Hold YOU ;)

Sooooo it wasn't anything super special.. But for a short while today, that guy and I held hands. :) It was BEAUTIFUL!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

If All Else Fails....

Seems like lately nothing is going right for me.. *Siiiiigh* Right now I just need to type out all of these crazy emotions before I LOSE MY MIND! :( First of all, I lost my purity ring.. I don't mean that I had sex, but I physically LOST my ring.. I usually put it in my sports bra during volleyball practice and after practice it was no longer there.. So, now I am purity ring-less. Second, I left my favorite TJ Maxx jacket at a volleyball game at Wyandotte. That, I believe, I will never get back. Because when's the next time I'm gonna be at Wyandotte? And just yesterday when I finally remembered to bring home my outfit for Women's Ensemble, I left it in the gym after practice. And when I went to go back and get it today, it wasn't there. So, it feels like my life as a whole is just SOL. Completely. And I like to think that this is an almost perfect world where people return the things that they find or at least turn them in to the lost and found, but it's not looking like that's how the world operates.. It's lookin more like it's the exact opposite and that this world is far from perfect.. I just don't know what to do now.. The lady in the office told me to pray and ask the Holy Spirit to lead me to my lost items.. So now that all else has failed in epic fashion, that's exactly what I'm gonna do. Please pray, guys.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

All I Ever Wanted Was to Act on My Attractions

Hay, Bloggies! Boy have I got some news for YOU! :D I haven't really spoken about this guy in a loooooooong time, but remember when I told you all about one of my ex's best friends that I was TOTALLY attracted to and he gave me his number and that we were texting?? :) Well.... This post has A LOT to do with him. :)
I'll begin my story at the homecoming dance. I went with my best friend and we both looked stunning, by the way! This is a pic of us before the dance:

So anyway, at the dance was the guy that I'm sort of attracted to. After deciding in my mind a few months ago that he didn't like me back, I just accepted the fact that we would only be friends, so I had a blast with him at homecoming! We danced a few times and had an overall great time! And by the end of the night, I was totally checkin him out a lot more than I had been in the past few months.
Anyway, after homecoming he sent me a text saying that he had a great time and that I was beautiful and I was thinking "aww how sweet!" But because I thought that he didn't like me in that way, I didn't think much of the sweet text. But the next day, he confessed that he'd been attracted to me all along! :D I was soooooo happy!
But...
Now I'm not sure what's supposed to happen.. I mean I don't understand why he decided to tell me this now... Because he hasn't really made any moves yet.. If he even will. I know that I'm not a very patient person and that's something that I'm working on, so maybe I should just wait.. But I feel like he had to have a reason for telling me now.. Anyway, I'm just really happy that he told me! But I also feel kind of weird now that I know.. I feel like maybe he's expecting me to act some sort of way now, even though he said he doesn't want things to get weird between us.. :D
Wish me luck with this one, guys! From what I know about him, he's a pretty great guy! And because I was able to allow myself to get comfortable with him and become friends with him, he and I are pretty close :) I love that guy.. But in a friendly way. :) Yup... Sure do!